first post after arriving in Perth. its a
beautiful country i must say though the weather's kind of weird. its freezing cold in the morning (ard 20 degrees) den in the afternoon its blazing hot.(ard 37 degrees) but the wonderful thing is that given the extreme heat, i
DIDNT sweat at all. amazing huh? this is how dry aus is.. and my calfs get reali dried up when i reach home, after school.. reali
SCALY looking.. yucks. den i literally had to pump out some
handfuls of moisturizers to dump on my super dry skin... Yup, so low humidity has its pros and cons i guess...
Sch was pretty good i guess. There are
damn lots of singaporeans who wans to be a vet too. god, i am so stressed up now, I
SWEAR. chances of me getting into the course is like sooooo frigging slim.. okay, i will show u guys the statistics (lol, or smth like tt). well, its like ther r 10
TEN or even more( i dunno cuz last yr got
20 according to jill) singaporeans who wan to take vet science and onli 2/3
TWO OR THREE singaporeans can get in. Apparently, they only take in 5
foreign students so tts gd enuf alrdy cuz some for some country, not even one of the students can get in... But still, i will be competing with
damn smart pple. :'(
So i am very stressed up now, kept thinking i am stupid or smth.. den i cant stop crying whenever i think about tt. plus,
i miss home too :'( initially i tot i would handle it pretty well cuz when i first reach perth, i was really excited and all ready to embark on a new journey but then, this excitment/novelty starts to wear off and suddenly i feel so lost... and pressurized.. i start to demoralised myslelf for godknowswhy and having negative tots.
i am sorry mei for calling u when ure stressed up urself too and u still have to listen to me rant on and on in inaudible words. i am reali tired now and hav totally no mood to do my hwk. :(
i reali miss my sg life ;
family and frds... No, i am not saying that the pple here are bad. in fact, they are great! i love my hsemates,
veera, valarie and jill.. they are a crazy bunch of pple and its nice to sit together n gossip non stop. Its reali nice, these pple. watching
desperate hsewife tgt was a crazy episode. lol.. and the fruit eating sessions.. HAHA
BUT In sch, i made alot of frds frm diff country but i still hav tt empty feeling cuz its all frds-on-the-surface.. i cant reali find a frd whom i can reali relate too and all. prob cuz i came late den eveyone in cliques alrdy n now i suddenly join them, it just feels.. soo..
awkward.. i have never hav this feeling b4, even in jjc but now.. its reali horrible.. the feeling.. like very lost and i dunno y but i get so
anti-high in sch? its like, i don wan to tok n.. its just.. but when i get home i got btr.. its so.. weird.
Yes, i noe.. Veera, im nt toking abt u. i like veera alot (lol, i bet she reading this). Yup, VEERA IS A
VERY SWEET n siao GIRL. but still.. i dunno y bt i juz.. feels very.. i dunno..
hmm... i am gg crazy down here... my feelings are so tangled up and i feel sooo sick. but i am relai glad, my sis's always ther for me whenever i nid her. and my frds too!!! thx for all ur words of encourgement.. but its just me... i am sooo.. i dunno.. prob it would take some time for me to sort out my feelings n thoughts..
tmr's the release of O' lvl results.
GOOD LUCKS MY DEARS! i hope u guys do damn well n go to the desired jc of ur choice!! heh heh =D
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terrible feeling :'(
{ 2/08/2007 }
