At home when I study, mei n dad would be there. Though my dad isn’t much of a company bcuz he oways fell asleep while accompanying me. My sis would be wide awake and then I would make her test me, she went through the entire agriculture chapter with me before O’s. and guess wad. She’s 4 years younger den me and tt makes her 12 yrs old only when she did that.

And the whole month of intense studying with nao just b4 O’s at the library. and also with wang, rimei, tzewei and pao. Occasionally with cow, bei and yulei at her condo.

I HATE STUDYING ALONE. I NEED PEOPLE!!

But I am glad shapnem is there to go to the lib with me =) but still, I hate studying at home without anyone beside me.

I miss dad’s snorings, however annoying it WAS, while I am studying till the wee hours.

I miss dad’s lame attempts to de-stress me when I am so URGH! by O’s.

I miss laughing at daddy for laughing at his own jokes.

I miss the little snacks that daddy prepare for me and mei when we are studying.

I miss meimei dragging a mattress all the way to the study room just to lie there and wait for me.

I miss watching her help me train my pokemons while I study for O’s.

I miss scolding her lightly for distracting me with her lame jokes.

I miss aunty renia’s “ah! Angela.. so studious ahh…" and then she will start fussing over me.

All this would never ever happen again because this is going to be my last phase of education.


Studying has never been so lonely before.

{ 5/29/2007 }

Whenever it rains, it would stir up this unfamiliar sense of fear within me… I hate being caught in the rain alone.. it just gives me the creeps… it is when i just want to go home and crawl under the blanket and hide there until the storm is over.

Phobia-of-foreign-country’s-rain

I miss home terribly. One year is an awfully long time…

{ 5/27/2007 }

{ 5/26/2007 }

was doing maths paper and i chanced upon something.. was so amused by it and the image tt starts to form in my head...


YES! its LIAM'S HOME. of all names, they hav to put LIAM. lol lol.. heng it wasnt the real exam paper if nt they will penalise mi for laughing out loud.


[Question Liam house also has a staircase with 2 steps. in how many different ways can Liam go down the 2 steps, taking one or two steps at a time?]
LOL. IMAGINE LIAM SKIPPING DOWN THE STAIRS, two steps at a time. with her curly hair bounchy merrily. and she goes, "hello class! its GEOG time!!!!!! how EXCITING!" OMG. SO FUNNY. AHAHAHAHAHA

{ 5/23/2007 }

not to mention my ultimate fav: RAINBOWS

its like in here, whenever it rains and sunshine follows after tt, ther'll b rainbows.

unlike in sg, whereby the amt of rainbows i saw since the day i could recognise a rainbow till the day i left sg, was less than 5. and even if there is rainbow, its usually very faint...

bt ere, its like reali verh dazzling (:

at the library ytd.

[thx shapnem for lifting ur butt off the chair n walking to a spot tt has the best angle of tt rainbow]

at my sch. 2nd rainbow seen on the same day, this one was during the afternoon.
saw this ytd at the library. it was soooo sooo pretty, u cant reali see the effect it has on the sky ere but it reali was stunning. n, there was ANOTHER RAINBOW forming on top of it. bt it was so faint tt it cant be captured with a 2.0 mega pix cam. my hp's cam feature damn lousy :(

at my hse ther, took tt pic while waiting for deb.

{ 5/20/2007 }

this is wad overdose of caffeine would cause u to become; a nocturnal animal who just cant seem to fall aslp.

so yup, shall blog abt smth happy lah. my post all so depressing one.sian.

today went grocery shopping with rach, deb n shapnem. the 4 of us like some ahsohs lidat, look at sales, compare price. see coles or iga cheaper. LOL. so we weaved into some pharmacy first, look at some cosmetics sale, den went kmart to buy facial products, proceeded to coles to get my chips and some groceries, shapnem suggested that IGA's chips are cheaper by 50 cents? so we went to IGA. LOL.

poor rach was like, "save me..." at coles. she's such a lazy girl lah. aiyo she har, a lil walking onli den she buay tahan alrdy. so she sat on the floor with her famous sulking face, tt resembles a puppy. nono, she didnt sit on the floor in the middle of the aisle. it was while mi n shapnem were squatting ther contemplating whether to get the shampoo [tts at the bottom deck of the shelved] anot (its on sale u see.)

shapnem was like laughing at me and my thin, balding hair (like hers is any btr). she saw this shampoo for THIN AND FLAT HAIR. and she was like, " huiqian nah! very suitable for u" den i gave her the -.- face and she started laughing uncontrollably. yes, tt evil muahahaha. her laugh is damn contagious n den i started laughing so both of us laughing our heads off ther. -.-

deb was saying this humongous comb's gd for combing hair and i cant help it bt responded in a reali horrible way. o.O

grocery shopping is always such fun. gosh! i can see myself evolving into an ahsoh lah. fancy seeing grocery shopping nt as a chore, but as an entertainment.


p.s i dunno y is my stomach oways making so much noise, even if i am nt hungry, they make noises too. its those kind of bubble popping noises? ahhh~~ so annoying, esp when doing test or in lib, then suddenly gt these funny funny sounds coming out.. so malu lah :x

{ 5/18/2007 }

He’s such a MCP. To him, a woman, even his wife is one that must obey him at all times. No buts, nothing. Its so ironic lah, he has such a big ego and yet he’s damn petty. -.-

i shall not discuss that ere bcuz its none of my business as to wads gg on btween them.

And in an argument he’s ALWAYS right. Even if all evidences are against him, screaming, “you are so bloody wrong”, he still thinks he’s right. Wth. Please lah, get your facts right first before u go around scolding people can.

and how uncompassionate can you get. Its bad enough that she’s moving out already, you still have to rub salt on her wound right. Damn u. and its not like she’s moving out on her own accord, she’s being forced to move out, against her will. its quite fair i guess but she's pitiful in a way. And instead of like pitying her, u say such things like

“you, especially you. Oways doing (this this this) but this would not happen in future anymore.”

I am like WTF. Why do u have to say that? She doesn’t bawl and cry in front of you, doesn’t mean that she’s not upset abt this whole thing. Maybe she’s just good at concealing her emotions. And in this case, maybe anger.

I don’t care if I sounded so rude in the car but that should shut u up. I hate it when people accuse me of doing something I didn’t do, with such insulting tone somemore.

And u did precisely that.

If there is such thing as ego-reduction op in future, I will put u first on the list.

{ 5/17/2007 }

today's such a cold day~~ brrrrr.. i wonder how am i gg to survive winter lah seriously. this morning, i just refuse to get out of bed until 6.40am which is like quite late alrdy. snuggling up under the several layers of blankets is farrr better than stepping into the shower cubicle with all ur goosebumps n hairs standing on its ends lah.

it was 4.5 degrees outside, this morning at 7.30am.

i had on a jumper, gloves, scarf alrdy n yet i was still feeling cold.. oh, but it wasnt as bad as china when its onli 6 degrees but it felt like wad, negative? n so we are all in so many layers of clothes that u cant differentiate mi from my sis from the back. because both of us looked like the rest of the rounded human tt's "rolling" about on the streets.

hmm.. so weird lah. cuz ryte, the 4.5 degrees in perth din seem like 4.5 but more like 14.5? i dunno... prob cuz ther's no wind bah. its the winds tts chilly i guess.

Anyway, i was reminising on animes today and i juz cant seem to rmb jiraya sama's name. I felt so gek (constipated) lah. its like, u noe wad it is, its at the back of ur head but u cant seem to rmb it? totally horrible feeling. den i was down ther, coming up with so many weird names and finally, i asked jessica and SHE RMBED! yay!

so that brings back happy memories. i miss watching naruto eh.. and darcie too, she will try to act like orochimaru. LOL. esp when she's having sore throat den she try to talk like him.

"watashi orochimaru"

WAKAKAKA. den i will be echoing her. LOL. aiyo, the fun days~ tts y i din wan to go back to sg during july. bcuz i don tink i would bear to leave sg when hols' over. its like, for the past 3 n a half months, i hav been thinking abt home, wanting to go home so badly. so its like, if i go back to sg, i finally get wad i had longed for (for 3 n half months), i wont wan to let it go anymore. and even if i do come back eventually, i would take a loooooooooong time to settle down again.

conversation with dad;

me: *crying* daddy~~~ i miss home... it sux being here all alone.
daddy: aiyo.. don cry don cry. okok, tmr i go book ticket for u to come back july.
me: *crys more*

after more sobbings. many tots running thru my head and finally,

me: don wannn... i scared if i go back alrdy i don wan to come back anymore.
daddy: ok lah. up to u ok.. wan to come back muz faster say if nt cant book liao.
me: daddy~~~~~~ *crys more*
daddy: aiyoh. i understand lah. its muz be reali hard to be on ur own ther but this is ur decision, and u muz tink of the big picture. of fulfilling ur vet dream. bear with it k? if anything you can call daddy one.
me: even in the middle of the night?
daddy: of course..
me: *bawls*

i love my daddy. he must be the best dad in the whole wide world. he's reali amazing and pple who noes my family well would noe y. he's more like my best frd den my dad, always ther to console me, advice me, cheer me up with his lame jokes. of course he does scold mi and resume his role of father when i misbehave n all.

so, no more tots of gg back to sg during july!

focus on my studies and return with pride and glory! =D

kk lah, hav to start mugging for semester exam liao, which is like less than 10 days away lah. shucks! and i am still blogging! wher is my sense of self discipline!!

p.s and not forgetting my sis! she's also the best sis in the world wide world! yay! i love my family.

{ 5/15/2007 }

i got Principal Honour Roll

today's the honour roll's breakfast with the principal and the certificate giving ceremony. i cried after all that. couldnt take it anymore. nt because i am happy. on the contrary, i cried bcuz i was sad.

as i went up on stage, my friends cheered for me bt i just felt so empty, lonely all of the sudden. where is my dad? he's nt sitting there, beaming with pride as i go up the stage. neither is he waiting at home for me to run into his arms and scream, " dad! arent u proud of ur daughter?"

he is just not there. not anywher within my reach. i hate this feeling. i am not happy at all. i want to go home. I WANT TO GO HOME REALI BADLY. i cried again on the way home. its so hard to do this on my own, i realise.

went home, immediately asked uncle for the hse phone to call. and he had to be so unfeeling, make mi fill up some form saying which date i called n all. i mean like I WILL PAY IF I USE THE PHONE ALRIGHT. I AM NOT DISHONEST LAH. god, wad is wrong with him, reali. den after filling up the dumb form, i took the phone n called my dad bt it was engaged.

torrents of tears.

i hate technology. they are so useless.

{ 5/11/2007 }

deb, shapnem and me (:

!!! i look so damn retarded. -.-

thats me!

he's the new chem teacher with rumoured nipple piercing?? anw, he's the biker type. bt surprisingly, hes reali strict. o.O btw, nice stubs sir! (:

Mrs Dewhurst! my bio teacher (: ONE of my TWO bio teacher. the other one was in Boston, for her scholarship thingie.. actually, i like mrs hawley btr. OOPS. bt mrs dewhurst is gd, but i tink mrs hawley is more qin qie.

Mr Mckenna.. he's holding a hello kitty fan if u notice. lol. funny guy lah. wear songkok and carry hello kitty fan -.-

Us at the quad

i like yanyi's sari!!! (: so nice lah!

hehehe!! i love mr ramirez!!! he's reali sincere and kindhearted. funny oso! doent he resembles TAY PING HUI!! i tink so eh. no, not tay kye ping, our emaths teacher. ANW, i miss TEKTEK lah~~ and his "hot" body which is always, forever sweating. at specific odd places somemore!!! kakaka~

mi n shapnem, just came back frm thefashion parade walk.

dragon dance thingie.. ahh, TRADITIONAL CHINESE =D they make all the hongkong n china pple hold this loooooooong dragon thingie. and i tot hk n china separate le? no arh? oh, mayb they reunite loe. =X

ALL HAIL TO SINGAPORE! MY VERY OWN HOMETOWN. I LOVE SINGAPORE. "this is my country. this is my flag,. This is my future, this is my life,. This is my family, these are my. friends. We are Singapore, Singaporean" I LOVE THIS SONG. the last time i sang it in sec sch with my BELOVEDS, i cried. the atmospher was so high and hands in hands with my friends, we sang this song at the top of our lungs. SO TOUCHING. i miss my singapore!

mi n tiffany (:
blur blur one. thx to arm lah~~

in our beautiful costumes! i love deb's one!! spanish. so sexy! bt she refuse to take her jacket off -.- deb harrr~~den when we all tried to take out for her, she complained that we attempt to molest/rape her -.-

MR SPASIC!!!! nt spasTic bt spaSIc! =D he's reali nice too. my chem teacher. hehe.

this are not all the pictures yet. wait till phoebe send mi more den i post (:

{ 5/09/2007 }

to my dearest noeleen, [reply to ur entry]

:'( don give up until the very last min k. n i wont let u be the cashier oneh. with ur experience with animals, u can oso take care of the animals with me! as for the cashier job, let tzewei do lah, he's so into MONEY. lol. nono, shud let him be the cleaner, LOL. a maid for once, a maid for life. hahahaha~ tzewei btr nt read this man. =x

[no lah sophia, i am just kidding (: u can be a pyschologist n pyscho the pets owners to leave their animals behind so we can kope home. esp if its a SAMOYED or HUSKY. ryt?]

anw, yay~~ gt egg le ur birdy!!! lets pray hard that it will hatch!! give it some hay beddings loe.. so tt its warm enough for egg to hatch.

and i am scared of getting old. i gt old-phobia la~~ i very scared like when i get old, nobody would wan mi liao cuz i would be so wrinkly, saggy, ugly, grumpy, irritable n sad :'( and i am very afraid of losing the people i love. and if i am reali old, i would see pple i love leaving my side gradually. ahhh~~~!!

sigh. bt tts life. kp my letter well kay, noeleen! just like the way i keep u guys'. love ya loads n i cant wait for dec!! hopefully when i go back, i would not only be visiting gubble and gamma but gubble, gamma and their children, as well as their grandchildren =D

MISS YA A MILLIONS.

love,
huiqian

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these few days have been busy busy!! been pia-ing bio and dmaths. and pls lah, i work so hard so i deserve the results ok. i will b reali mad if think i dont. because I DO. hrmph!

anw, yah~ today got PREVET!!!!!!!! =D tuesday is nw officially my fav day, besides sun. and i absolutely love greyhounds. though they are nt reali people dogs like retrievers, i reali LIKE them alot. they are such a bunch of reali patients dogs. =D its like, no matter how much u manipulate them, they will just stand there without any signs of retaliations. n if they don feel comfortatble,they will just suffer in silence. I am nt exaggerating but its true.

so we learnt how to diagnose them, check their eye, ear, teeth, gums, stomach, heartbeat, breathing patterns, lymph nodes blah blah.. had to take temp too -.- i hate taking temp for animals. u shud noe y. urgh!

oh, and we saw POST MORTEM OF A SHEEP!! the small intestines, stomach, spleen, large intestines and all on the floor. I WAS SO EXCITED. nt cuz i am sadist k. but its like, this kin dof stuff, the only chance i can see 'em is in pictures. bt now its actually THER! in front of me. n they cut up the stomach to reveal all the dirty green mass of stuffs. i just tts the blended hays bah.

i hav no prob with post mortem of sheeps so long as its not intentionally killed for consumption but apparently, that sheep died naturally n the cause of death was not defined n so they were doing a post mortem for it.

hmm.. n we toured the farm hospital thingie with all the sick farm animals. horses are gorgeous creatures. they look so divine and high class~~ n i saw baby sheeps today!! =DDD so cute lah!

that way i can find my sense of satisfaction too, just like how krishna find satisfaction in teaching at the headmaster's children sch.

=D tee hee!

{ 5/08/2007 }

There are some things I find hard to come in terms with. I can believe I am already 17 yrs old. That day I was chatting to aunty and we were talking about some happenings that happen so long ago..

Aunty: “You heard about the [wadever, cant rmb] ?”
Me: “Yah. Happen around when I was born. About 17 yrs ago.”

And that struck me, 17 yrs ago. That’s how far I am from the day I was born. 17 years. It sounds so freaky and suddenly I feel so nolstalgic. 17 yrs ago, I was still in sleeping peacefully in the arms of my mummy n daddy.

And now that I am 17, that can never happen again.

I can no longer curl up in my mummy’s n daddy’s embrace and sleep so securely because I know no matter what happens they would protect me from any harm.

I miss the childhood days whereby we only have colourings as homework. I miss playing Whats-the-time-now-mr-wolf, aeiou-bangali-love u, lao ying chua xiao ji, ice-and-water, catching, coloured-crocodiles, pepsi-cola-123. I miss running all over the void deck with my childhood friends.

Now it sounds pretty ridiculous to play this kind of game. Prob cuz of our higher intellectual level. even if we do play those games now, the feel wont be the same anymore. We would not be playing it because of the fun but because we want to win.

That’s human nature I guess, when we become more educated, things tends to get more complex. Of course people always say, it’s the process that matters the most, not the outcome.

But deep within us, is that always the case? If we study hard, we expected good results. And when we don’t get it, we will get so depressed. Nobody’s going to say, its ok. the results doesn’t matter, what matters most is that I worked hard. I mean, its true that working hard matters a lot but its going to be a 70%-30% thing, with the percentage higher on the result part.

Then I miss the primary school days whereby there’s a lot of puppy loves. Ron. I will rmb him always though our relationship’s so unusual. Also the sweetest n most sincere guy I have ever met.

I even miss the days whereby mi and my frds write letters to each other, hate letters, friendship letters. And the gazillions of autograph books that we wrote for each other, ranking all our friends in the friendship corner.

Then the secondary life, also [nt almost. typo -.-] the best part of my life, where I meet all the most amazing people that made such a huge impact in my life and will continue doing so.

17 years is such a long time. It scary that there is so much things to reminisce upon. And soon, I would be in the working society, get into a marriage and if I were to give birth n hav kids, the cycles starts again. But this time its wont happen to me anymore, but to my child.

All of a sudden, I want to go into a time machine and go back to 19 March 1990 when I first greet the world with a loud cry.

{ 5/05/2007 }

tt's a quote from shapnem, the lame philosopher.

anw, just a quickie. cuz i juz came back frm a LOOONG day n i'm SO tired i can just stand n slp.

today's MULTICULTURAL DAY. n thx to talweez, i wore a very nice punjabi suit. =D n mi n rach gt hana drawn on our hand, thx to shapnem. yay~ oohh.. and i almost lost my hp again!! boooo!! I am such a gong headed person lah. n once again, i tink murdoch students r verh honest! yay~ but tt doesnt give mi an excuse to misplace my hp again loe. -.-

Oh, as i was saying. multicultural day. everyone was dressed up in diff countries' traditional clothes. well, almost all. n the sight of SINGAPORE FLAG creates this warm feeling in my heart. din noe i am actually such a damn patrotic sgrean. LOL.

oh, took ALOT of pics today n i have to wait for rach to sent mi b4 i can post 'em up. so yea, in the meantime.. u guys just have to stick to reading words. oh, and i participated in the fashion parade. sounds grand n "high-classy" ryte?

but, NO!

ITS NT. as if kena sabo-ed by jon to company him walk the quad is nt enuf, he had to suggest doing some random actions... n i cant believe i did it lah~!! -.-"""""" i was so malu tt i quickly grabbed him n pull him off the quad. I MEAN, the fashion parade was cool. the retarded part was us. n he tot its fun. tsk.

OHHH!! i took a pic with my RAINBOW lah. buahahahahaha~~~!!!!

FUN FUN FUN!!! today is so fun. and seeing the pple dancing on stage makes mi wanna pick up dancing again. i hate listening to high tempo songs n nt being able to dance to it. it makes mi feel soo... soo.. constipated! gaaah~

{ 5/03/2007 }

Ignore the previous post. Everything is fine now lah kay. Anyway, today we had prevet. PIGLET HANDLING SESSION. It was not fun because I do not enjoy watching the piglets being handled so roughly. It was fun because I can FINALLY cuddle a smelly but CUTE piglet in my arms and sayang it. pigs of all age n sizes r cute.

They are highly inquisitive and smart. When we opened the cage, a piglet took it as an opportunity to escape and thus ran out of it. almost everyone was chasing after it. such a funny sight to see a piglet take off at such a fast speed with its stubby legs n all.

Then we finally caught the piggy and I carried one of them to the pens. Took the temperature n heart beat for them. Have to poke a thermometer into its rectal area to take the temperature n I was so afraid that I would stick the thermometer in too much. Gah! Poor piglet, must have felt very violated :(

And despite them being SOOO stinky, I have not yet change my mind abt wanting a pig as a pet. They are REALI very smelly n dirty, after being in contact with them, we just reek of manure. Reali pungent ones. BUT I LIKE. I reali reali like them. I remember pestering my dad for a piglet in sec 3 and always kena rejected one. -.-

Daddy, if u are reading this. I promise I will scrub my piggy everyday and clean his poo de so it wont have a chance to roll in its own poo. I want my piggy to sleep with me and I do not care if it snores damn loud. Speaking of which, do pigs snore when they sleep? In cartoons, they always do. I wonder if they do in real life. HMMM..

I would walk my piggy every evening and watch it trots merrily along the way.

Random: I bought new boots today. *guilt-stricken face* but hey, if u see it from a positive light, it would come into handy in winter loe. Heh.

{ 5/01/2007 }

Hui Qian
19 March 1990
Murdoch Uni- Vet sci

amy
ahwei
ally-lijin
bei
bao
bateman
chienlan
cow
Eggplant-jess
jaslyn
hidayah
lynnette
meimei
nao
noe
rashal
rimei
trish mommy
wang