/edit/ shit. my conscience is eating me now. i shudnt hav used the f word on her. shudnt hav been so harsh. ANGER MANAGEMENT. wher is that. wher has it gone to when i am so angry n rdy to kill a person. URGH. loh hui qian, this is not u. THIS IS SO NT U. ARGH. bt i reali cant help it. pls don let mi evolve into some bitch who spits out the f word more often then she says "hi". urgh!! its so tiresome to be so angry at a person. shucks. stay away frm mi can. i am so tired of getting pissed at u.

{ 4/30/2007 }

I have never used fuck to scold someone in the face before. Never. Not even to the people I hate. Not even to the people who insulted me. But today I did. I used it on her. I was so pissed. I was really so angry that i almost slapped her if not for that little teeny winy bit of self control that held me back.

Nobody has ever hit me for nothing lor. Not my friends, not my dad. Because they know that I have skin problem. Once u hit me, even the slightest slap would cause it to swell. And bugger, u dare to hit me for no rhyme or reason. Bitch. I did not even do anything u and u come and hit me so bloody hard. Ass.

And this is not the first bloody time lor. The last time, you hit me with ur water bottle because u mistaken what I said. And then u go, sry sry sry… den nvm. This time, u hit me again. Bloody ass. I was so angry lah. EVERYTIME LIDAT.

Ther are like a gazillion other times whereby she will hit me very hard dunno for what shit. Den I will tell her off and the next time she do again. U tink not pain arh. Har! Den ppl hit u lightly only and u go OWWWWWWWWW!!! -.- n its nt even me who hit u lor. I don go ard hitting people like some siao kia.

Moreover after what u did in the morning. U OWAYS DO THINGS AT THE EXPENSE OF OTHERS. And wad, u lied. Wtf. Tell me to trust u and so I did, den in the end? Almost gt me late. Wth. I AM NV GG SCH WIT U AGAIN LOR. Everytime I go to sch with u. NOTHING good would come out of it de.

Ok, I noe I am like the meanest person on earth to use fuck on anybody. I was really very very angry. the anger built up and I finally exploded. Trish and shapnem! I LOVE U GUYS. Thx for the rainbow “poem” and mr Kentucky. Seeing him nv fails to cheer me up.

Wait lah wait. My anger would go down by tomorrow. Meanwhile, the mere mention of her name would send me thru the roof.

Treat u so nice still like that to people. Wth. I shud have just tell them what reali happened. Mayb I shud POST it online n let everybody noe what u did to my sutff last night. BLOODY hell. But on second tots, I don wan to incur a bad karma bcuz of u! urgh!!

{ 4/30/2007 }

today is nao's bdae!

{ 4/26/2007 }

drawing rainbows with cleancolours n tt kind of colour combi is my style. my trademark. so pls, don nt copy ya? i hope tt this is the first and the last time. for nw i would benevolently let it go bt if i see like the exact same rainbow den i am reali gg to get verh upset.

and everyone has their own style of doing things so im sure u all have too so do wad u r most comfy with, u shudnt be trying to copy others bcuz u tink its nice. i am fine with pple using colours, i mean ANYONE can use colours wad. bt don use it exactly like the way i use it. its like, this kind of stuff is not like carrying a pink bag whereby everybody can carry a pink bag.

BUT this is more like my OWN creations tt no other person will tink of de. so its nt verh nice to oso do the EXACT same thing u noe?

i am proud of my own style n u shud b proud of urs too.

{ 4/25/2007 }

brrr~~! its cold.. gt caught in the rain while leaving murdoch u frm the pre-vet course. luckily i had my jumper on, if not i will be freezing more than i alrdy was. Today's prevet session was nt tt fun.. no hands-on or handling or animals yet. just some intro of the mile prog n the vet science course.

cant wait for the piglet handling the next next wk (: awww~~ and yer, we went to the anatomy museum wher all the dead animals' body parts are preserved, along with other bone structures thingie.. interesting! (:

and thx to the prevet thing, WE DIDNT HAV TO DO OUR BIO TEST TODAY. how lucky~~!! weee~ den i can study for my temperature topic. =D best thing is, ther's no sch tmr so yay! even better! haha.. so happy lahh.. LOL.

today we gt back our dmaths test thingie results... n veera rupini excitedly ask mi for my marks.

"EH! angela? did u get full marks (its out of 50 btw)"
"no!! siao ahh.. u tink i so smart meh?!?"
"Ohhh...!" (giggles giggles)

And of course tt made mi curious, as to how much did she get. and so, i went to interrogate her and guess wad.. this is the exact thing she said

"I score quite badly." (den she pause") "ok lah, mayb not that bad but still not very gd"

so i am like, SO WAD DID U GET LAH!

"Dont laugh at my scores ok. I got.. 45 out of 50 "( for the benefit of those who cant count, tt's a FREAKING 90%)

i am like, YAH HUH! TTS SOO LOW. and she asked mi for mine n i told her, i gt a mark lower den her n she was like, ARE U SERIOUS (or u r kidding.. smth along tt line) -.-

so its up to u to decipher whether rupini is either TOO HUMBLE or just mad.

i choose to tink tt shes the latter one. =x

k lah.. i wanna watch my poseidon liao. been wanting to watch it since last yr bt din get the chance. so yay! finally~~

random: tt bahnu ahh.. can actually forget her locker combi after onli like 2 wks? GAAHH..

p.s i feel btr now.. i dunno wads wrong wit me ytd :/ haiz.. oways get those emo-attacks recently.. guess its result of stress, homesick-ness, boredness, sadness.. blahh~~ i REALI wan to go home... super damn homesick.

and ash is havin a beach party at the end of the yr.. ahh~~ den how am i s'pose to go home str8 after the exams?? its a wk long party somemore.. :( contemplating if i shud go not.. hmm.. bt if i don, i will miss out on alot of fun. bt den again, i REALI wan to go home n i am sure it would b equally damn fun in sg too.. with all my darlings, family and cousins (:

decisions.. decisions.. we'll c den~~

{ 4/24/2007 }

I feel sick. I hate it here. School’s gonna start tmr. I am not ecstatic at all.. Give me that kind of bitch attitude. Now I feel as if someone using a pillow to stifle me. I cant breathe. I want to scream. Wan to shout as loud as I can. I wan to cry and wail as loud as I can. I wan to make a huge racket n release my pent up emotions. I have no idea why I am bearing this. I don usually have such high tolerance n patience for such stuffs. to be damn angry but still suppress it and not blow my top. To be damn hurt n still act as if I am happy. To be damn sad but still hang a smile on my face n advice u.. To feel like crying but laugh instead. I feel horrible.

:’(

and on top of that emotions, I have to mug for my bio test tmr. How bad can life get.

Nobody there to put their arms ard me n tell me, its gonna b ok. to hang on. Nobody love me, nobody care for me here. I feel so lonely. I am lonely. I wan to go home.

:’(

{ 4/23/2007 }

new template (: like finally, the old template's starting to b such a sore eye alrdy. so i changed it.. =D pink n green! my fav combi of colours. such indian-ish colour huh. n this template suits my situation nw, ALOT. so i like it exceptionally much. BEWARE! nt intending to change this template until a long long long time has past. heh

gonna make this a real short post. hav to study for bio test tmr. GAAHH! *freaks out* so yah. shall blog the point form way

^ sat went out with val to garbo, fremantle n city. LOL. all in diff directions. i noe.. bt its a long story y we ended up in city. anw.
^got home. was gg to leave for slpover at trish's when aunty suddenly told mi tt she's gg to play mahjong.
^ of course i was tempted
^ so i almost din go to slpover BCUZ of mahjong.
^ bt rupini was being such a baby
^ so i went.
^ rent movie, ate junks, scare rupini, bitch abt pple

^next morning, went for vet
^ lots of cleaning.
^ xuper cute kitty, bt aunty wont let mi hav it.
^ saw consultations.
^met trish for lunch at chicken treat.
^ leave for willeton. meet talweez
^ played with nicky (talweez's dog)
^ chatted alot.
^ borrowed punjabi suit
^ left for home
^ reach home, collapse on bed
^ wake up 3 hrs ltr.

and then, ther's today.. woke up REALI late.. o.O

kk, gotta go. study time! yucks!

{ 4/23/2007 }

wtf. "if a kangeroo runs out, just kill it lah" wads wrong with these fucking selfish pple. ther is such thing call brake or swerve. so wad if u end up with a few bruises. wads comparable to a kangaroo's life. i mean like, its A LIFE for fuckinggod sake. i bet if its like a human, they will be like, "den brake lah. or swerve" wad dangerous pebbles road.. who ask u to drive so fast in the first place and then to realise a kangaroo is crossing the road. and then decide u don wan to risk having any injuries so u happily go n run the kangaroo down. WTF.

so am i right to say that if there's a human crossing the road and i am driving like damn fast bcuz I LIKE IT. and den when i see the human, i just simply run him over lah. cuz i don wan myself to get hurt wad, and who ask the person to go n cross the road. cant he just stay at that side of the road FOREVER.

no ryte! no human would ever do tt to anudder human. and for doing tt, they may feel guilty for the rest of their life. so, why do u fucking pple say such things so casually ,"just run down the kangaroo wad.. u noe.. its so dangerous to brake. u might end up injured." INJURED ONLY WAD. nt killED. fucking selfish humans.

I AM SO PISSED. "A KANGAROO IS JUST A BIG RAT". wad the fuck are u thinking. A LIFE IS A LIFE. ther is no diff whether its a rabbit, spider, kangaroo, rat or wad.

if u are the one driving at such damn fast speed den u shud suffer the consequences! not the kangeroo! who only wans to cross the road to get to the other side. and they are the ones who own these place first. its the fucking intruding humans who went to pave a road and allow fucking selfish driviers to drive on the road. and then now they have the cheek to say things like that. wadthehell.

i just feel like pushing a knife through these pple.

humans are FREAKING self centered creatures.

i feel so sry for these animals who cant fend for themselves :'( . i cant say for sure i wont do smth to the next human who say this kind of heartless things again.

{ 4/21/2007 }

hello (: i just come back frm murdoch U... finally done some solid studying.. =D YAY! and i made a new frd frm AFRICA. haha, he keep asking mi to help him take care of his things whilst his away frm his desk cuz he scared pple steal. aiyo! so cute lah~ den i was listening to my mp3 n he will stand ther n wait for mi to turn and would politely say (with alot of hand gestures) "help me look after my things ok" lol. abit scary lah to feel someone hovering behind u and den u turn n see him ther. lol.

but he;s reali nice. blur blur de. and REALI REALI very dark, almost black le. tts his skin colour i guess. ( i am nt like.. urmph! i can differentiate btween skin colour n tan) yah anw, i bought chocs n offered some to him, aiyo.. he was like.. ohhh thank you very much! with his thick african accent. hahaha.. so cute. and then we talked a lil, told him i wan to get into vet science and he was like, "ohh! tt's a very gd course!" den i was saying its very hard to get in. and he was like "u aim very high, like 90 and above and then drop a little to 80 plus.."

HAHA.. den i started to turn abit, to my work. and he saw wad.. so he was like, "okok!! concentrade haaarr!" so funny de he. haha. but frankly speaking, i was quite intimidated at first.. oso dunno y.. hmm.. mayb i hav nv seen or talk to an african b4 bahh..

nonetheless, he's a reali sweet person (:

and i came home at ard 8.30pm.. aiyoh.. i was so paranoid thruout the way home.. i was so scared gt smth like suddenly jump out of the bush -.- bt after all the stuff tt pple say har.... it reali freaked mi out to walk in the dark here.. and i was so glad when i reached the main road cuz at least its brighter ther. *phews* was grabbing my phone so tightly n all the adrenaline rush. LOL. FIGHT N FLIGHT RESPONSE. ahahahaha!!

ok, i am mad. fancy entertaining myself ere. -.-

k lah, i go have my dinner le. love the pple visiting my blog! cuz i noe they love me too! =D

{ 4/19/2007 }

finally, i stop procastinating and finish up all the replies to the letters =D yay! feel so accomplised~~~ in total, i wrote 14 pieces of paper, 2 sided =D its all filled with my love and utmost sincerity. cant wait till my dad get hold of it and pass them to nao so u guys can meet up and read my letters =D

and i sent nao her prezzies, dad's shirt, mei's tube top and renia's braclet.

phew! all done.. now i can cancel off a huge chunk off things from my to-do list. and i bought notebooks too.. so yea! and we saw jean n yoman. tink they reali verh compatible (: btw, tt yoman reminds me of wz.. the frame n looks abit loe.. but not the character! heng! lol. i am so mean.

anyway, i hav come to a conclusion, if in a homestay, there is opposite genders de. chemistry would occur between them, den soon they will be holding hands. so far, i hav known 2 couples lidat de. hmm.. tts y parents discourage cohibiting.. cuz ryte, from cohibiting, u can cause two strangers to get into a relationship.. imagine if they is alrdy a relationship den they cohibit.. without the survellience of someone else.. hmm..

hmm.. ohh! i started annuder drama. its call corner with love, starred by xiao zhu and xiao S. not bad leh.. romance comedy.. watched until 4.30am last night.. aiyo.. addicted.. and very sad lor.. cried alot of times n i am onli at epi 3.. gah! its reali nice. this yr just released oneh. xiao s very pale-skinned. and xiao zhe very dark.. nice leh.. heh.

and rimei's so sweet =DDD love her to bits. this our convo

[i did some "illegal" thing b4. bt now nt counted le. anw]

-[ s a r a h ] ™ says:
oo
-[ s a r a h ] ™ says:
wha..
-[ s a r a h ] ™ says:
eee.. mus call police arrest u
-[ s a r a h ] ™ says:
then got chance to see u
-[ s a r a h ] ™ says:
haii
.:+*+_oO h U i q I A n Oo_+*+:.:. colour my world~~ says:
haha... yah.. den u can see mi thru bars
-[ s a r a h ] ™ says:
lol... no.. can use the telephone.. with the glass panal
-[ s a r a h ] ™ says:
so cool la
.:+*+_oO h U i q I A n Oo_+*+:.:. colour my world~~ says:
HAHAH..
.:+*+_oO h U i q I A n Oo_+*+:.:. colour my world~~ says:
y don u go break some aust law n kena lock up here so i can visit u thru glass panal? it will be cool too!
.:+*+_oO h U i q I A n Oo_+*+:.:. colour my world~~ says:
LOL
-[ s a r a h ] ™ says:
good idea..
-[ s a r a h ] ™ says:
i go be illegal immigrant!!
-[ s a r a h ] ™ says:
so even if i dun get caught i'll see u
-[ s a r a h ] ™ says:
then i'll be aust's bangla..
-[ s a r a h ] ™ says:
go do construction work
.:+*+_oO h U i q I A n Oo_+*+:.:. colour my world~~ says:
LOL!!!!
.:+*+_oO h U i q I A n Oo_+*+:.:. colour my world~~ says:
rimei ahh
.:+*+_oO h U i q I A n Oo_+*+:.:. colour my world~~ says:
u are sooo funneh lah (:
-[ s a r a h ] ™ says:
lol.. now then u know ar..

i miss rimei!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

{ 4/17/2007 }

(above) PINK AND PURPLE curtains. aint they gorgeous (: [dont bother abt the table. its soooooo messy. its btr looking nw k. i just tidied it this morning!]

(above) PINK AND PURPLE bed. ooohhh.. pink bed sheets, pink blanket (my own one frm sg) and purple blanklet (homestay's one)

ohohoho! such a random post.

okok, my chicken pie is rdy! =D weee.. TIME FOR LUNCH! growl!

{ 4/15/2007 }

helllooo~~ i am back frm fremantle. first of all, i am sooo HAPPY. i found stuffs to give my dearest nao for her bdae! and i am pretty sure she will like it alot! =D its ok if its a lil expensive, as long as she likes it!

YAY! smth to strike out on my list of to-dos... i haven been accomplising much so my to-do list is like forever so long. and yikes! i am such a blur thing, my main motive for gg fremantle today is to get threads for my cross stitch. yes, the stupid pple cheat my money. and i, naively assume that all the threads provided in the cross stitch set are sufficient to complete the picture. but NO! its no enough!! they short change me. awww!!!

So my plan was to go n get the threads today bt guess wad?

I FORGOT TO BRING MY CROSS STITCH ALONG.

wahkao. and so i din noe wad colour to buy. cuz there is so many shades of browns! gahh! BUT, something to cheer me up.. i bought nao's present and oso had fish n chips at cicirello. AND AND, not forgetting my PEPPERMINT icecream, which i shared with trish =D yummy!

and... to make up for the food i eat. i am gg to make myself do crunches! as much as i can! bt in the meantime, i hav to reply to the letters le... planning to send the parcel on mon. cuz apparently the service here is not that fast so yah.. btr to send earlier. incase i cant make it for nao's bdae. oh, and i gotta send a parcel to my family too!! ahhhh~~~ btr hurryyy!!

cya.

{ 4/14/2007 }

Was browsing thru my previous blog and i came across this post :'( its the whole "gang" slpover, just short of lao bei:

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"SECOND ENTRY OF THE DAY. first entry is below this entry. oh hey. i am back (: pls don blame me for any spelling mistake cuz i'm typing this wit only half opened eyes. i am reali verh tired larh, ytd nite onli managed to get 1 hr or so of slp cuz we slept at like 2 plus n then had to wake up at 4 to cook. and i was hoping i could rush home to slp so i told mingxian tt i wont b gg to the P6 gathering le but in the end i still went larh. i was glad i went (:

but hey, i wanna blog in chronological order. so yea, wher did i last stop? oh, i was gg to blog abt the mega slpover.

there is 8 of us; Daomin, Wang, Rimei, Noeleen, Pao, Tzewei and Weiguo. our initial plan was to finish doing all the photo frames and the food delight stuff by morning which means we would hav to sacrifice even our slp to finish them. but lol, we didnt do larh. this is all the crap things we did

8.00pm: reach my hse

8.00-9.00pm : cook n eat maggi mee

9.00-10.00pm: ch 8 "measure of man"

10.00-11.00pm: ch U "my lovely samsoon" [ws n i started boiling potatoes]

11.00-11.30pm: ch 5 "project runway"

11.30-12.30am: mould the potatoes

12.30-1.30am: went up to my rm, off the lights n share ghost stories n lame jokes.

1.30-4.00am: slp

4.00-6.00am: fry potatoes, took some catnaps.

The moulding of the potato was super funny can. we were all laughing so hard till i teared alright. noeleen's potato are always short n fat. i kept eating the potato i mould. char n rimei kept making stupid shapes. tzewei kept laughing like a mad person. it was just crazy. LOL.

the sleep was horrible larh. there were too many pple n we all slept in the weirdest formation. rimei, char n daomin took my bed. weishan, me, noeleen, tzewei and weiguo take the mattress on the floor. weiguo was sleeping at our legs, tzewei was sleeping beside the toilet wit only his head on the mattress. weishan, noeleen n me slept rather normally.

thruout the night, weiguo keep curling up n i just kicked him [i was too tired to care larh.] but noeleen n weishan curled up as well to prevent themselves frm kicking him n ended up nt being able to slp a wink.

den char's legs was hanging down frm the bed n at times, they would b stepping on weishan's stomach. LOL. n many a times, rimei sae she almost fall off the bed cuz danao was always tossing n turning. HAHA. it was just horrible larh.. nobody gt much slp, erm.. except me.. lol.

anw, we went to sch and yea, hav food delight. it was nice larh though we made a blunder of nt ensuring whether the broth was halal or not b4 purchasing it. so the malays ended up wit no steamboat to eat :/ SO SRY.

oh bt the way the performance put up by faj they all, rox can.. supaa nice! oh, and i absolutely love bollywood, its an energetic dance wit soft arms. verh nice to see n dance. yep, n after tt food delight, all of us took damn spastic pics. OMG. tt stupid guanyin photo is SO FRIGGING FUNNY LARH. GOODNESS ME! cow is sooooo spastic!! n so r we (: haha. "

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end

i reali reali miss those days. 35 more wks n i can relive this kind of life alrdy. i sort of hate my life now... sry, it seemed so unfair to say tt, esp when ther r pple trying to make it better for me and i still hate it...

i should be contented. i am quite fortunate. though i cant b with the pple i love, they are always ther in my heart n we still chat n talk on the phone..

at least, i didnt lose them totally......

thank god, i didnt...

{ 4/12/2007 }

{ 4/11/2007 }

"To jiejie:Although i am not there to company you at night to study or company you during your holidays, i will be mentally there to support you and company you ok? So continue to work hard ok? JIAYOUX!! REMEMBER MEIMEI AND DADDY WILL ALWAYS LOVE YOU AND BE THERE TO SUPPORT YOU!! "

i ripped this off from my sis's blog... :'( she's so sweet :'''''''''''''''''''''( i miss them. she's a reali reali strong girl.. despite being onli 13, she's so mature and understanding. i am oways the one getting so sad and emotional and she would oways b the one who put her arm ard mi and say, "jie! its ok de lah.. don b sad k"

and she say tt when shes oso feeling damn awful too :''''''''''(

god bless that girl who's oways putting up a brave front to make her sis feel better.

i love my sis.

{ 4/11/2007 }

today's a very accomplishing day bcuz i went to gym! n attended the abs and weight lifting class. verh tiring lor bt i tink worth it lah if can train my abby abs! =D but its damn ex lah, the fees... bt.. hmm... somehow i managed to escape frm it. =DDDDDDDDD

aiyah, now i lose all my mood for blogging. thx to this stupid EGOISTIC PERSON. ARGHHH! HE thinks all the ppl studying in perth, australia are CMI ppl. [cannot make it] this is out exact convo: [i don give a shit whether u r reading this not.]

^^ my nick was abs abs abs!

=Z says:
abs is it the modulus function?
.:+*+_oO h U i q I A n Oo_+*+:.:. with only a bag of passion, i take on the arduous road says:
, no... its 6 pack
=Z says:
o,,o
=Z says:
kks
=Z says:
as in i m obsessed
.:+*+_oO h U i q I A n Oo_+*+:.:. with only a bag of passion, i take on the arduous road says:
-.-
.:+*+_oO h U i q I A n Oo_+*+:.:. with only a bag of passion, i take on the arduous road says:
yah... smart wad u
=Z says:
no
=Z says:
its gc function
=Z says:
ii bet u dun even use gc in aust
.:+*+_oO h U i q I A n Oo_+*+:.:. with only a bag of passion, i take on the arduous road says:
graphic cal?
=Z says:
ya
.:+*+_oO h U i q I A n Oo_+*+:.:. with only a bag of passion, i take on the arduous road says:
yahlah
=Z says:
u nvr use
.:+*+_oO h U i q I A n Oo_+*+:.:. with only a bag of passion, i take on the arduous road says:
u tink aust stupid pple go one arh
.:+*+_oO h U i q I A n Oo_+*+:.:. with only a bag of passion, i take on the arduous road says:
I GOT USE CAN
.:+*+_oO h U i q I A n Oo_+*+:.:. with only a bag of passion, i take on the arduous road says:
wth.
=Z says:
kk
=Z says:
i dumbass lah
=Z says:
hehe

wtf lah. seriously. he's oways lidat. SO WAD IF U GO RJC. as if its a bigggg deal lidat. asshole. and this is not the first time he is saying this to me le lor. wth.

tt time he say he got 6 for L1R5 den he was like, shud i go RJC or HCJC. den i tot he reali nid help la so i helped him to evaluate the better sch.

and in the end, he changed the topic to how many FREAKING A1s he has and all.. because i obviously wasnt impressed by the fact tt he can go to the most prestigious jc in sg. and i was like, ERR.. okok.. i gt a few A1s onli and he was like, ISIT? OHHH.. I GOT ALL A1s n one A2. and he ask mi why i onli take double sci and i am like, huh? cuz i hate physics wad.

i reckon he was expecting mi to say smth like, "OH!! ONLY SMART ASS PPLE LIKE U TAKE TRIPLE SCI.. OHHH I AM SO STUPID. MAYB I SHUD KILL MYSELF.." GOD!! what the.. I WAS SO PISSED CAN.

what the hell lah. now he come n say tt australians don use graphic calc. i mean, COME ON LAH! who the hell in high sch don use graphic calc and he had to say it in such an arrogant way. f him la! bloody ass.

why do pple oways assume that onli stupid pple who CMI in singapore's education, come to aust to study. like hello? my O lvls nt as great as his lah bt with tt i can still go to a JC lor.. bt i chose to come here bcuz i hav a dream to pursue. so what the fuck is ur problem. dont stereotype pple lah. so wad if u do very well acadamically. don even hav common sense n knowledge. oways hide at home n study, GET REAL LAH. this is the 21st century le, now pple go overseas nt onli cuz they CMI in sg but bcuz they hav dreams to pursue. EFF U. EFF THE BRAINLESS U.

ARGHHHHH!!! I AM SOOOOOO PISSED!!!! i noe i shudnt get so worked up just bcuz of this person lah.. bt i reali cant take it le.. he will oways be like.. URGHH..!! ohoh! tt time i told him i having a 3 wks hol n he was like.. HUH! WAHH U ALL VERY SLACK LAH. LIKE EVERYDAY OSO NTH TO DO ONE. HOLS SO LONG. NT LIKE IN SINGAPORE NOW.

I was so angry n hurt by his comment lah. HERE I AM SLOGGING MY GUTS OUT JUST TO GET INTO VET SCIENCE N HE HAD TO SAY ITS VERH SLACK ERE. fuck u! if you dont noe anything, den don assume things. just bcuz aussies are more laid back, tt doesnt mean tt pple here n even those who come here to study are SLACKERS OR STUPID PPLE.

i wan to slp now. AHHHH!!! i am soooo sry if my post turned out to be so vulgar or wad. i am reali soryy. i just need somewher to vent my anger. i will blog abt happier stuff wheni am feeling btr. so sorry..

{ 4/10/2007 }

{ 4/09/2007 }

I AM SOOOOOOO ANGRY!!!!!!! AND VEXED!!!!!!! I FEEL LIKE PULLING MY HAIR OUT. URGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHH..

bloody idiot, ask us go find vet for attachment but all the vet are either TOOOOO FAR or they dont accept students or they alrdy hav 1/2 students with them. PATHETIC! TOTALLY PATHETIC. there are like at least 30 students looking for attachment at vets. and wads the chances of me able to get into a vet clinic tts nearby and accept students?

i alrdy set my expections quite low le lor... i am even willing to take a bus ride of max 40 mins loe!! WTF. den most of the vet clinics not even open today and i always reach the annoying voice mails. and tt cost me a FREAKING $2 LIAO LAH. URGGHHHHH.. so now i hav reached a total of 6 voicemails. and tts $12 WASTED. bloody thing. so damn expensive. ARGH!!!!!!

den i gt thru one bt they don accpet students.. and then i got one which is like 2 hrs 30 mins bus ride from here. JUST GREAT LAH. and its nt even a proper vet... ARGHHHHHHH. I AM SO DAMN FREAKING PISSED.

I WANT TO GET MY DRIVING LISCENCE N A CAR BUT DO U NOE HOW TIME CONSUMING TT IS. ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! THIS IS SOOO MADDENING!!!

shit u all. the damn lousy transports. the brainless pple. the freaking expensive phone calls. the stupid course. ARGHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ANGRY ANGRY ANGRY!!!!!!

{ 4/08/2007 }

ARLO!! =DD i am in a much better mood today. HEH. talk abt mood swings.. hah. anw, today at sch was reali dull, [no shapnem its nt bcuz u r not here] i tink its bcuz everybody like cant wait to get out of sch n go play den all verh zzzzzz...

and and some pple, are just sooo damn annoying lor. trying to b something which u r obviously nt... ARGH! irritating~~~~!!!! n i hate it when pple shhh! me can. I TOTALLY DETEST THAT. ESPCIALLY WHEN IT COMES FRM U, FOOL!

ANYWAY ANYWAY, juz now mi, trish, ash and deb went to garden city to do some shopping... without shap n rach :( rach's shud b on her way to the perth airport now le bahhh.. she's flying back to sarawak le. i alrdy miss her liao :'( and HAVE A SAFE FLIGHT YA?? =D and shapnem, HAHA! she had to entertain n go out wit her terrible aunt. LOL... she say until the aunt like some domineering monster lidat bt when we coincidentally bumped into them at coles today, the aunt was NOTHING like wad we imagined her to be... LOL.

This is wad mi n trish imagined her to be: very very dark, big sized, super traditional looking with SARI and this face that says i-am-the-meanest-person-on-earth. but she's nth lidat! haiyo, shapnem ah u...

anw when shapnem saw us at Coles, she was like, AHHHHHH~~~ and we go AHHHHH~~~ SHAPNEM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! and all the hugs n laughter.. LOL.. LIKE NV SEE EACH OTHER FOR A DECADE LIDAT. but actually we onli din see each other for ONE day.. -.- damn funny lah. HAHA..

and i reali reali reali hate myself. seriously. i bought 50 dollars out with mi onli so i wont overspend. u noe me, i spend every single cent i have with me de lor. den in the end, i end up exceeding my 50 bucks n i borrowed abt $39 frm Trish and $11 frm deb. so tts a total of 100. I NOE!! I AM SUCH A SUCKER. and if my dad reads this, i am like soooooo dead.. URGHHH!!! i oso dunno y i can buy so much de lor. and to think, i was the one who said, eh! i must save money! cannot buy too much...

AHHHHHHH!!! WHY AM I LIDAT!!!!!! *slaps myself* tt time we went City, Harbour Town.. the same thing happened, i said i am not gg to spend alot of $$ and in the end i was the one who spent the most lor. -.- AIYO!!!!!!!!!! how how how!!!!!!!!!! mayb i shud just lock myself in the hse n NOT go anywher..!! HRMPH!!

and this sat, we gg City again for karaoke and i hav to had this TOTALLY AWFUL sore throat. ARGH! so mayb i am not gg le.. so i am contemplating whether i shud join them for karaoke or go for gym with val. mayb i shud go for gym n work out the STUPID DAMN WEIGHT tt i have gained...

haiz.. okok, i am gg to go watch some random tv shows/movie with val le. cya.

once again,

i miss my darlings. n u guys noe who u are!

{ 4/05/2007 }

this gonna be a total random post. bt first of all, juz wanna announce tt finally i went jogging after like a mth. ARGH.. homework n tests' r always the excuses. bt now tt i am rid of hwk n tests, i can finally go n JOG! the weather's gd today too.. not too chilly, not too warm =D how nice..

by right,i should b feeling damn happy now bt i am not. tmr's last day of sch n there's a long 3 wks break. wad am i to do during this 3 wks? sit there and reminisce? think abt how nice it would b to hav my family n best frds with me? gosh, this is...

i wished i had gone out today and i hate having nth to do. when i hav nth to do, these crazy tots and emotions would go wild and tts when i feel totally moody. bt i cant, debs, rach, shap and ash is not free n tts left wit onli mi n trish. :/ n arm n jon.

BIG SIGH.

Oh anyway i was just rewatching "xin niang 18 sui" 's last episode n though i watched b4 i cant help bt cry again when the grandpa passed away. :'''''''( tt day, one of my frd's grandpa passed away n i felt moody for the whole day. i do not wan tt to happen to me when i am not in singapore. i swear i will fly back no matter hw my dad objects.....

i reali cant imagine tt happening to me. i love my grandpa!!! i reali reali reali reali reali love him alot... considering how he used to dote on mi when i was young, and even till now... n he's reali a sad man.. all the worst things tt can ever happened to anyone happened to him. not one, not twice but thrice...

n tt's losing ur dear ones.. he may seemed strong with his unreadable facial expression. but i saw him tear, i swear i did. it was onli for a split second, b4 his tears could run down his cheeks, he had alrdy wiped them off. i saw all tt, wai gong.. i reali did and i cried reali hard after tt... the grief of losing my uncle was sad for all of us but it must be much much much worse for my grandpa.

death and grief. why am i talking abt this gloomy topic. URGH.. i wan to do smth!! to keep me occupied and to keep away those awful tots!!!! mayb i shud go do my cross stitch or eat some coco crunch...

bye. i will post happier things when i am in the mood. cya, i miss my darlings alot! :(

{ 4/04/2007 }

had supper with valerie (: haha, both of us was like, ehh!! i verh hungry eh.. so we went out to hunt for food!

and after the food, i felt so sinful lah~~~ :((( its like 12.30am le and i just ate maggie mee+some diced chicken and quite a few handfuls of cocoa crunch. den i was already feeling like some greedy pig liao...

den when i went back to my rm, tzewei was chatting with mi n so i replied, only to realise that he had gone out jogging!! AHHH~~ tt made mi feel ten times worse!!

okok, i btr go slp now in case i wake up late AGAIN. argh! this morning was horrible man.. don wanna repeat wad happened :/

kk, good night my darlings! =D lol, tt reminds mi of how bimbotic shapnem n trish were acting today in sch! GOSH!! their stupid accents.. tsk tsk!

{ 4/03/2007 }

Hui Qian
19 March 1990
Murdoch Uni- Vet sci

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