you could make me happy this way

I feel sick. I hate it here. School’s gonna start tmr. I am not ecstatic at all.. Give me that kind of bitch attitude. Now I feel as if someone using a pillow to stifle me. I cant breathe. I want to scream. Wan to shout as loud as I can. I wan to cry and wail as loud as I can. I wan to make a huge racket n release my pent up emotions. I have no idea why I am bearing this. I don usually have such high tolerance n patience for such stuffs. to be damn angry but still suppress it and not blow my top. To be damn hurt n still act as if I am happy. To be damn sad but still hang a smile on my face n advice u.. To feel like crying but laugh instead. I feel horrible.

:’(

and on top of that emotions, I have to mug for my bio test tmr. How bad can life get.

Nobody there to put their arms ard me n tell me, its gonna b ok. to hang on. Nobody love me, nobody care for me here. I feel so lonely. I am lonely. I wan to go home.

:’(

{ 4/23/2007 }