you could make me happy this way

this gonna be a total random post. bt first of all, juz wanna announce tt finally i went jogging after like a mth. ARGH.. homework n tests' r always the excuses. bt now tt i am rid of hwk n tests, i can finally go n JOG! the weather's gd today too.. not too chilly, not too warm =D how nice..

by right,i should b feeling damn happy now bt i am not. tmr's last day of sch n there's a long 3 wks break. wad am i to do during this 3 wks? sit there and reminisce? think abt how nice it would b to hav my family n best frds with me? gosh, this is...

i wished i had gone out today and i hate having nth to do. when i hav nth to do, these crazy tots and emotions would go wild and tts when i feel totally moody. bt i cant, debs, rach, shap and ash is not free n tts left wit onli mi n trish. :/ n arm n jon.

BIG SIGH.

Oh anyway i was just rewatching "xin niang 18 sui" 's last episode n though i watched b4 i cant help bt cry again when the grandpa passed away. :'''''''( tt day, one of my frd's grandpa passed away n i felt moody for the whole day. i do not wan tt to happen to me when i am not in singapore. i swear i will fly back no matter hw my dad objects.....

i reali cant imagine tt happening to me. i love my grandpa!!! i reali reali reali reali reali love him alot... considering how he used to dote on mi when i was young, and even till now... n he's reali a sad man.. all the worst things tt can ever happened to anyone happened to him. not one, not twice but thrice...

n tt's losing ur dear ones.. he may seemed strong with his unreadable facial expression. but i saw him tear, i swear i did. it was onli for a split second, b4 his tears could run down his cheeks, he had alrdy wiped them off. i saw all tt, wai gong.. i reali did and i cried reali hard after tt... the grief of losing my uncle was sad for all of us but it must be much much much worse for my grandpa.

death and grief. why am i talking abt this gloomy topic. URGH.. i wan to do smth!! to keep me occupied and to keep away those awful tots!!!! mayb i shud go do my cross stitch or eat some coco crunch...

bye. i will post happier things when i am in the mood. cya, i miss my darlings alot! :(

{ 4/04/2007 }