you could make me happy this way

i got Principal Honour Roll

today's the honour roll's breakfast with the principal and the certificate giving ceremony. i cried after all that. couldnt take it anymore. nt because i am happy. on the contrary, i cried bcuz i was sad.

as i went up on stage, my friends cheered for me bt i just felt so empty, lonely all of the sudden. where is my dad? he's nt sitting there, beaming with pride as i go up the stage. neither is he waiting at home for me to run into his arms and scream, " dad! arent u proud of ur daughter?"

he is just not there. not anywher within my reach. i hate this feeling. i am not happy at all. i want to go home. I WANT TO GO HOME REALI BADLY. i cried again on the way home. its so hard to do this on my own, i realise.

went home, immediately asked uncle for the hse phone to call. and he had to be so unfeeling, make mi fill up some form saying which date i called n all. i mean like I WILL PAY IF I USE THE PHONE ALRIGHT. I AM NOT DISHONEST LAH. god, wad is wrong with him, reali. den after filling up the dumb form, i took the phone n called my dad bt it was engaged.

torrents of tears.

i hate technology. they are so useless.

{ 5/11/2007 }