you could make me happy this way

IGNORE THIS. just being my emo-self..

i am nt strong enuf to deal with this.
not yet.

i reali am a failure
i hav came so far.. bt its only now tt i realise that mayb i am nt ready
mayb i am nt cut out to be doing wad i wan to do
mayb i am more suitable filing paperwork then holding a scalpel.

why did my heart wrench so badly
why do tears just flow
and my hands just tremble
when i see it lying there.

why why why.
i need strength.bt frm where?

i feel terrible. just wanna go home nw.

{ 2/19/2008 }